April 13, 2011
I am not really sure what is going on with me lately but whatever it is needs to be, well, moving the hell on. I have been in a horrible funk since this past Sunday and I can't seem to pull myself out of the dark hole that I have decided to hide in. Each day I venture out a little more from this deep pit only to hunker back down it around dinner time. I absolutely *hate* feeling depressed, sad, tired, anxious, overwhelmed and I have all of those going on at the same time. Not good. This system is on overload and my warnings are sounding off LOUD and CLEAR(Don't worry folks I would never hurt myself or others....no need to admit me anywhere)!
I know I have a ton on my plate and usually I am very good at managing it all but lately it seems time is running the show and I have no "say so" in the matter. Re-reading that makes me sound completely OCD and I will be the first one to admit that I am and I get completely out.of.whack when my world is the teeniest bit disrupted from it's routine. Go ahead, feel sorry for my family...they need some love and a pat on the back for dealing with me. Thankfully, they (for the most part) understand it's me "just being me" and accept it without a ton of static.
I have kind of taken a break from blogging because I haven't really had anything nice to say and I don't want to bore you with griping or whining about things. I try to blog about happy things going on in my life and right now I am still trying to get out of the
hole pit to see the sun.
I know it's shining and I am ready to see it's rays and warmth. Hopefully warm and sunny blogs will be coming your way soon :)