Cuteness

One of the major perks about being a Mom is all the sweetness that comes from your child's mouth. usually my child is bossing me around with his mouth and a "beady eyed" look but occasional something sweet pops out of his mouth like today.

Today was a "SKiDO" day so he was excited that he got to see the Fuller girls. My child is like a miniature Hugh Hefner....he loves all three of the girls but Mills is his "main squeeze". This started out as a love (him) / hate (her) relationship but I guess his charming ways have rubbed off on her....or it may be the fact that he let her drive his Ford F150 truck around the yard a couple of months back. Either way, I have a little guy on my hands who is head over heels for "his" Mills. He affectionately calls her "My Mills" when he talks to anyone about his love interest.

This afternoon when I picked my little guy up he went and told Miss Mills good-bye and she grabbed his cheeks and pulls his face to hers and planted a big kiss on his lips. I about died from the cuteness factor....I mean, seriously, that is entirely too sweet for words.

I also have to mention the other adorable thing that happened today after VBS.....Brody has "tickle bites". At first I had no idea what he was talking about but then I noticed he was pointing to his face which has a few mosquito bites on it from playing in the yard yesterday. Seriously, how cute is that!??!?!?

Tickle Bites.

I *LOVE* IT!!!!

Making Music

"God is a DJ, Life is a Dancefloor, Love is the Rhythm, You are the Music".

Wow! is all I have got to say with that quote that I ran across earlier this morning. It instantly made me smile because it rang true in my case. For the past several years the music I have been putting out was a sad set of notes. I wasn't the happy, thriving young lady that I once was. My family and I both missed the sweet melodies that once projected from my heart and soul. I was a lost soul just going through the motions of life. I would wake up every day without that "spark" I once had, do just what I had to do in order to survive, take care of my family only to go to sleep and repeat. I was in sad shape and so was my family and our relationship with one another. Our household was a very sad one and anyone that listened carefully could hear that echoing through the four walls of our house and our outwardly appearance. The worst part of the whole thing was that *I* was the one to blame for the "perfect storm" that was brewing. That storm finally came to a head several weeks ago when I could no longer go through the motions...my body was a mere 76 pounds, I was tired mentally & physically and I had hit my rock bottom.

I had a life changing experience two weeks ago that left me renewed, refreshed and ready to start life over again singing a new tune. I was able to take a break from my "real life" to focus solely on myself and my problems without the issues of my every day family life. I was able to get away from my household for 5 LONG days to take time to heal inwardly and outwardly. I am blessed to have a wonderful husband who allowed me to remove myself from my family so I could take time for myself....time to fix me so I could fix our family. If that isn't a blessing I don't know what is.

After taking time out of my busy life to concentrate solely on me and my own faults I was able to see that I have been the root of all the chaos in our family. I was unhappy and miserable with myself and the music that I was putting out echoed loudly in the ears of my family and friends.  The only music they heard was a sad melody and that in return made them upset, unstable and on edge. Once again, all the ingredients for the "perfect storm".

I have learned more about myself in the past 2 weeks than I have in my 32 years on this earth. I have learned that I need to ask for help when I need it. I have learned that you can't heal overnight, deep scars and wounds take years to heal. I have learned to start putting myself first and doing that *isn't* selfish; it's what you have to do in order to stay healthy to take care of your family. I have learned your family really does know more than you do when you are at your lowest point in life. I have learned that your actions, sharp tongue and attitude rubs off on your family and in return they start reacting in a negative manner. I have learned that getting professional help isn't a sign of weakness; it's a sign of strength. I have learned that FAMILY is the most important thing one can have. I have learned that love is unconditional if it's *true love*. I have learned that your children do love you unconditionally...Thank God. I have learned that at the end of the day no matter the riches you possess that you're no better than the homeless. I have learned to be humble and patient. I have learned that church really is good for the soul and that GOD is good....you just have to trust and believe in him. I have learned the power of prayer and that things happen on *his* time....not yours.

Above all, I have learned that the music I project is what my family dances to and for that very reason I am done with sad & angry lyrics....I am ready to dance to something joyful and uplifting. So you better get your dancing shoes ready because I have a lot of goodness to sing about!

xoxo

Love Never Fails

I am on night no. 4 without my husband and I must say that I am missing him terribly. Although, I know that the time away from one another has done our hearts (and mental state) some good it has been difficult to be away from my very best friend for what seems like weeks!

You honestly never know how much a person truly means to you or how much you depend on them until they aren't in your every day life, schedule and/or routine. I guess that is why we easily take one another for granted so easily because we're rarely apart. My husband doesn't know what I do all day until I am gone (and he still doesn't totally grasp it because he hasn't had Brody alone) and I don't see everything he does for me until he's not present. And it's not even physical stuff that I am talking about either (like taking out the trash, laying Brody down to bed, etc.) it's more the emotional level of our relationship that I miss when I am not by his side.

I miss getting my daily kiss on the forehead before he heads out the door to work...granted, I am half asleep and a bit groggy but I know I am supposed to have one every morning. I miss laying in bed with him at night catching up on our DVR'd shows from the week while he is beating my ass at some word game on our phone. I miss holding his hand while I am falling asleep hours after he has passed out in the bed. It's those little things that are really big things when you take the time to reflect and put it all in perspective.

My marriage with Mike means more to me than I will ever be able to write in a blog, express in a card or speak freely about to friends and family. I can't explain the love, admiration and attraction that I have with this man. He keeps me on my toes, he keeps me fired up and spitting nails, he keeps me grounded, he keeps me somewhat sane even though he does question my sanity, he keeps me being "me". I can only explain it in car terms...he's my oil...without oil in a car your engine will cease up and die. Mike is pretty much the person that keeps me held together and without him I really miss him and I am not running as well as I should be.

So enough of my mushy crap...I saw the following two pics and I really loved them and thought I would share. It's definitely what I am after in life...particularly with my better half.

I do love seeing this and I pray for it every night:

Momma's Coming Home...

The day is FINALLY here....My Momma is coming to see me!!! I have not seen my parents since Christmas and I have been missing both of them terribly. We traded in some frequent flyer miles so Mom could make the visit for a couple of days and I couldn't be happier. As many of you know my Pappaw has terminal cancer so someone has to stay with him at all times. Sadly, that means I can only see one of my parents at a time unless we go home (which we are next week * super yay*). Like me, my Daddy is the only child so a lot has been put on his shoulders when it comes to my Pappaw's illness. Luckily, he didn't mind letting Mom come to Georgia for a long weekend to visit. I think she needs the break and a Brody fix quiet honestly. 

I have a lot of fun things planned as long as Mother Nature cooperates! We have had rain here all week and I am so.over.it! I can only take grey skies for so long before it starts making me depressed. It is supposed to start clearing up this afternoon and continue to be beautiful throughout the weekend....however, the weather here changes in a minute so I am not betting on it. Last weekend it was in the 80's and then turned to turbulent weather which has lasted 4 looonnnggggg days. 

I know Mom will be perfectly happy sitting in the house all weekend playing with Brody but for my sanity we will need to get out some. I am hoping that tomorrow we can go eat with Susie and Miss Annelise at "The Cookie Shoppe" because it's the most fabulous food I have ever eaten when it comes to a sandwich shoppe. Momma appreciates small town things like that so I am sure she will enjoy it as much as Susie and I do! I also have to go to Mark's Melon Patch because Daddy wants some more chow-chow and I guess he liked the jar he picked up from there the last time they visited. I am not really sure what else is on the agenda for the weekend but I am sure it will be something fun.

I am also so excited about our bedroom getting painted this weekend!! Finally the ugly Pea Green soup color will be covered with a beautiful shade of aqua/green/teal color. Mike and I had some trouble agreeing on a color but we finally chose something we both liked. This is a new color for both of us so I am hoping it turns out as good as it looks in my mind.

I have not had any time to really blog this week but I got a Cricut bundle from my sweetie. He is so, so, so good to me and I really shouldn't complain about him as much as I do at times. He is so thoughtful and loving and I need to be better about showing my appreciation for it. I truly know I am very blessed and have the perfect partner, husband and best friend. He is my everything and I would be so lost without him. 

I better start getting ready so I can make the 3 hour drive to Atlanta with Brody to get our Nannee! I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend! 

(Oh, and honey....I am in love with the darling bird necklace above. Click the link to check out the site on Etsy. Hint Hint!) 

Puppy Love

Ah, puppy love....wasn't that such a great stage in our younger years?? To go back to that type of "love" would be wonderful (in some ways). Those days were were filled with butterflies in your tummy, smiles you couldn't wipe off your face, burning red cheeks and love letters that were straight from the heart. Such an innocent and fun time. I had forgotten about all of that until tonight when we were at Susie's house for dinner and both of our boys seemed to be hit by cupid. 

Brody is in L.O.V.E with Susie's daughter, Annelise! He has had a few "gewlfreends" in his short 2.5 years on earth but something about this one has him wanting more. I mean, I guess if I were a little boy she would be right up there on my "gewlfreend" list too! She is a beautiful blue eyed, blonde haired girl who has a bubbly personality to go along with her precious good looks (and wardrobe - Thanks to Cosco & LaLa). She is super sweet to him and I think he eats that up in all honesty. She holds his hand, tickles him, gives him hugs and practically tells him what to do but he doesn't mind because as long as he's her top priority that is all that matters to my little guy. Luckily, for now it's puppy love but it hurts my heart a tad because I know my baby is growing up and one day that puppy love will turn into the real thing and I can't even begin to think about that. It gives you a sense of losing something so special and dear that it's really a feeling of great loss. I don't think anyone can fully understand what I am talking about until they are a mother of a little boy or a father of a little girl. It is a strong bond that's between the two that nobody can totally grasp or explain....or at least *I* haven't been able to.

Susie's son, Will, is in the same boat as Brody but he is head over heels for Victoria who is 11 years older than he is. He gets all bright eyed and smiley when she is in the room and it's the cutest thing to watch. He acts all tough and macho around her which is comical but not in a "make fun" of him type of way; it's heart warming. Tonight he came to me while I was cleaning up after dinner and handed me a note on a bright green piece of paper. Before reading it I had STRICT instructions to give it to her on Friday morning so I agreed and read his note/love letter. I opened it and honestly I thought I was going to cry because it was too sweet for words....he wrote " I will marry you someday". Seriously?!? How can this little boy have more sweetness in him than most grown men I know!! I swear, I think these young men need to give a class called "Sweetness 101" because they got it down. I am 32 years old and that melted my heart and I wanted to marry the little fellow right then and there in the kitchen! However, I didn't follow the directions Will had given me earlier because we really wanted Susie to keep the darling little note for years down the road. Victoria did read the love letter statement and was flattered.....seriously, how could anyone not be?

Now for my own puppy love -- oh dear. I have been wanting to get Brody his own dog for a while now because he is at a great age where he can appreciate an animal that's his. We are in a large enough house that has a large enough yard for the puppy to play and roam freely. We also happen to have 3 kennels so one is open and readily available for a new addition to the Beemer house. I was browsing the local shelters and ran across the most PRECIOUS puppy ever and fell in love instantly. Her name is Lucy and she's a 6 month old Lab/Rot mix. I haven't been able to stop thinking about her since I found her post online. It breaks my heart to see the picture of her with that cute snout poking through the fence she's been living in the past 2 months. I have expressed my desire to have this puppy to my husband but he's not biting. I honestly don't think he knows how bad this has me torn up inside. I can usually see pictures of these sweet babies that need homes and go on about my day without thinking twice but this little puppy has tugged at my heart strings and isn't letting go. I am really hoping and praying he has a change of heart because I think Lucy could bring a lot of joy in our lives and most importantly Brody's. 

Happy Birthday to my Love

Happy Birthday, Honey!

I love you.

“May you live to be 100 and may the last voice you hear be mine.”

- Frank Sinatra

Pitter-Patter

Valentines Day gift bags for Brody's Preschool class

One of my FAVORITE holidays is right around the corner and I am counting down days! I am such a romantic and love anything and everything to do with Valentine's Day. 

I have been busy putting together the gift bags for Brody's class party next week. Luckily, for him, his Momma loves to do arts and crafts so he always has unique personalized bags to share with his class (and eventually his girlfriends).  I try to make all of his gift bags something that is unique to the holiday and personalized for the kids. I typically always use a brown paper lunch bag because they are a blank canvas that you can do practically anything to and their economical! This time around I decided to use the Candy Hearts as flowers; I cut grass out of construction paper and painted it with glitter paint. I used a green sharpie to draw the stems of the "flowers" and I added ladybug stickers to the  "flower garden". Brody and I made the clay hearts last month when we were on our clay crafting kick. I painted those with purple glitter glue and wrote their names on them with a black Sharpie. I really liked the way they turned out because it was exactly how I pictured them in my head! That always feels great!!!

Too Cute & Yummy!

I also got into the baking spirit and baked 90 mini Valentine themed cupcakes last night!! Cupcakes are so much fun because you can make them for almost any occasion and the possibilities are ENDLESS when it comes to decorating them. I took several of these cute little cupcakes over to my friends house this morning for our coffee/play date and they were beyond YUMMY! I'm sure they won't last very long in our house if Victoria, Brody and Mike have anything to do with it.

My Strange Addiction

During this whole Valentines day preparation that I have had going on I've came to the conclusion that I have an addiction.......to Hershey Kisses. I am not kidding; it's a full blown addiction to the wonderful little tin foil wrapped pieces of love. I have been eating a bag a day -- DEAD serious. No joke. I don't know how I have become addicted to something that I used to hate. I was never a chocolate eater; never even ate sweets growing up. Now I can't keep this chocolate candy in stock in our pantry. If they are depleted before I can get a new bag I seriously go into bitch mode and start feeling like a walking talking anxiety attack waiting to happen. It's insanity. My husband doesn't care for it too much either; not because I am gaining weight (that's a good thing) but these candies are $5 a bag and I am buying a bag every other day! Add it up people and you will see his concern. I might have to have an intervention soon because this is getting out.of.control! Maybe I need to be on the show "My Strange Addiction"; I am sure I would fit in just fine because that show has some crazy people with some very strange addictions. Why not add an episode with a Hershey Kiss addict?!?!? 

NOTE TO OLD CLASSMATES: If you see me at any future reunions and I am overweight; don't ask, just know it was the damn Hershey kisses that caught up with my once skinny ass. 

This will be Brody's first year exchanging Valentine's so I am really excited for him. I may be more excited than he is but once he sees all of that candy he will be on cloud nine. 


3 days and counting....

1.19.11

Happy Anniversary to my wonderful husband, Mike. 

I love you forever & always....

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Nadean Bruehlman @ Gene Ho Photography 

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