FAIL.

Today is a day that I know some (or most) parents deal with several times a year and I shouldn't be hard on myself but I feel like a failure. I feel like I am constantly getting sick now that I have two kids in school and it seems like I always get the worst of it. After being beat down with multiple sinus infections and colds I am at an all time low and it's only May!! 


I was lucky enough that Mike was able to take the day off because in all honestly I would have been worthless when it came to watching Brody. When I'm sick it really gets me down and my every day life & responsibilities  magnifies being under the weather by ten. I feel horrible for being in the bed all day, I feel horrible for not being able to take care of the kids, I feel horrible for not enjoying a beautiful day, I feel horrible for not being up to par and cooking my family a dinner....you get the picture. I feel horrible, period. 


I will also admit that I felt immature and bad that I called my Momma in tears because I couldn't take it anymore. I know that sounds so childish but something about her soothing voice always tends to calm me down and make me feel better even if it's temporary. She usually talks sense into my snot babbling sobs and reminds me that I am not the only Momma in the world that feels utter disappointment when I'm not functioning in my normal perfectionist state of mind. Her usual remedy was take some Advil or Tylenol for the sinus pain, eat a bowl of hot chicken noodle soup and drink something warm to soothe the throat. Wonder how many years Mothers all over the world have told their youngin's that?! 


I did manage to make a Doctor's appointment and was informed I had a nasty sinus infection (the green snot didn't give it away?) and was given a round of antibiotics. I was a little disappointed that it was just your normal Amoxicillin and not the awesome knock-any-nastiness you have out Zpack. I guess it will take longer to work but beggars can't be choosers. I was desperate for anything that would make me feel better when I made the appointment and thankful that I could get seen today. 


So I will wrap up this complete self involved blog post and take my last dose of antibiotic for the night before I forget! This will be the third one I have crammed down my throat since 2:00 this afternoon; hopefully I will feel a little bit better in the morning AND I can function enough to get out of bed to transport my son to preschool for his last week of school before summer.